I had a revelation this morning.
I woke up feeling guilty and anxious. I felt guilty for sleeping in so late and for eating those peanut butter M & Ms last night. I felt anxious about the pile of homework screaming my name to be finished today and the boxes of stuff I had planned to organize this weekend.
And then a thought popped into my head out of nowhere…
“Do you. Stop worrying about what everyone else might think.”
WOWZERS. I needed that. I spend a lot of my energy trying to make other people happy. Whether it’s worrying about my hair and outfit looking right, or trying to be a master chef, or trying to make my apartment look perfect. I even worry that someone might judge me if they found out that I slept in late and haven’t finished my homework yet. But why? Because I want other people to be impressed. It’s not really for me at all.
But to be honest, I like sleeping in. I’m sometimes a procrastinator and my apartment never looks perfect. I wear what I think looks good and feels good. And most importantly, I absolutely love peanut butter M & Ms. In fact, I might just have some for breakfast and not get out of my pyjamas all day.
I’m just going to keep doin’ me and forget what people might think of me. It’s a waste of time, energy, and emotion. You should all do the same.